The Beginning of Professional Me...

Life in Chandigarh is complacent since the day it began. I no doubt had my own share of ups and downs, both professional and personal, but am satiated so far. 
I often think of the professional Me and then again I go back to my initial times and ask myself this question over and over again - Did I ever dream of being a corporate professional? Till date, I haven't been really successful in getting a satisfactory response to my constant questioning but if I think of today, I do feel good about my work. Working and being a part of corporate world is more of an experience than a feeling. Its full of numerous new interactions, new people, new places (specially in my case!!), new goals and perhaps new challenges. Though not much has come my way yet, or may be i didn't feel like that till now, but its really a good feeling working in a company. It means a lot.. it means you have a responsibility in your hands, it means you have to fulfill certain expectations, it also means you're a part as well as representative of a team.. a huge group of people, and then it means you have to make your living!!
Working with Infosys has been a roller coaster ride. There have been numerous ups and downs in all these months and don't know how many are piled up ahead. But seems it has prepared me to deal with any uncertainty with a chilled out attitude. I still remember the time when I was in mysore for training. Despite the pressure of maintaining a decent CGPA, despite the constant stress, despite the struggle, despite those zillion tests and modules, despite those sleep deprived nights due to the zillion tests, despite the home sickness, those were the best days of my life! I have lived one of the most beautiful days of my life in Infosys Mysore DC and I really wish if I could get a chance to visit it again. Well, they don't prefer calling it office, instead, they call it a DC - Development Center of Infosys. Seems fine too, for a distinct organization, there should be certain distinct labels. Everything was so perfect there.. the huge mansion-like campus - the kind which make you feel that they belong to you, the serene greenery, the paths so clean as if the roads have been built a moment ago, the hotel-like food courts, rocking DJ parties, our very favorite pool side, entire ECC (Employee Care Center), darling multiplex (This one is probably the best part of Mysore DC!! Gawd.. I miss it!!), late night CCDs and Baskin-Robins, awesome weather round the year and so much more. Its less of a professional and more of a college environment. 
Those were the days which laid the foundation of building the college student in me to a responsible corporate person. I wouldn't be justified in calling myself the exact replica of what I always looked up to when I admired a successful figure like Mr. Narayan Murthy, it has taken him a long time, perhaps his entire lifetime to reach that place, but I can definitely say that I see myself travelling the same road with a similar vision - To change the world - To change MY world.
As I write this post, I realize that dreams are actually indefinite and it only takes a right vision to turn them into reality. I hope mine too comes out to be one of such kind because I completely agree when they say:
If you can dream it, you can make it happen.

Life back to Life..

Long time no see applies to me when it comes to Whatever these days. Life never got busy to an extent where I couldn't take out some time now and then to write my heart out. It was rather my own decision which kept retaining my resistance to interact someway or rather anyway with this post editor. Unlike the usual, it was a time when I didn't want anyone to know how and what I was feeling. When life changes, everything else has to wait for its settlement. Now, I guess settlement has started taking place in my piece of life. And by the grace of God and my loving family, like the usual, I again want to share my unbound thoughts and feelings with my world.
My legacy of contemplating life still continues the way it has always been my favorite topic. All this time, life had been a ride with perhaps its lowest of the lows and the highest of the highs. 
Today, as I prepare myself to step ahead in an all new phase of life, I lay still, completely undisturbed and think of all the things I have got from life and of those which life might have in store for me. I know I had been bit stubborn and demanding from life lately, but then I also believe that it was going to be a now-or-never decision. Millions of things are running through my mind and I am unable to settle them inside all by myself. I look back to those days of childhood times when going to school seemed a big project and scoring 10 out of 10 was the only goal of life. When getting candies from Mom was the only delight in life and fighting with Bro was the only problem I would have. Then I recollect growing up to those days of adolescence when I assumed myself the queen of the world. It was a time when Mom's candies had turned into personal vehicle and fights extended their domain to friends as well. Gradually while stepping out of that growing-up adolescent age, there came a grown up stage where responsibility takes over most of the immaturity in you and life suddenly becomes an object of endless contemplation. Its the time when you start setting your priorities and you also start driving according to them. From that point onwards, I only see myself transitioning slowly and slowly into a new someone everyday.
Now, when I dig deeper into this transition of mine, I realize there had been people who had stuck with me every moment despite the changes in me being good or bad, I realize that knowingly or unknowingly I have earned some gems which were the sole reason of all  the happiness in my account, I realize that my family is my constant source of existence and that its my first and last destination, I realize that my friends are my ultimate companions in this ride and they are the reason for my first and last celebration.
With all these amazing realizations, I do feel sad leaving behind a part of me where I have lived my first half of life, but I also feel enormously confident to step forward and enter a new world with new people and new responsibilities. I just hope life and God keep blessing me with these amazing people together with the new ones as I transform my Love into this beautiful relationship called Marriage...

Life - A kaleidoscope!

Life couldn't be more unstable and uncertain. But still, no matter what, there is a ray of hope.. and thats what is all that am living with!

Cold cold winters...

Hardly two or three minutes back when I took the first sip of my tomato soup, I realized that to whichever season it may be compared to, winter season remains unsurpassed among all! And this very feeling made me jump into my blanket and start tapping my fingers on the keyboard to compose this post while sipping away the hot soup.
I guess I love every little or big aspect of this beautiful season. The woolen jackets and fur over coats, rubbing off hands to produce any possible amount of heat, noses turning red, shiver down the spine, freezing carbon dioxide coming out of the mouth (..gawd I love it!!), basking in the sun, the intense fog making you feel as if the clouds have climbed down to earth, watching people and vehicles moving in and out of these clouds, getting all the more lethargic, sweet corn soup, hot coffee or hot choco which seem to taste better than ever before, sitting besides fireplace, reading a novel and realizing its more interesting than you'd heard or thought, raisins, chilled ice creams (I bet no winter memory is complete without ice creams!!) and so much more! I absolutely love visiting hill stations specially those with ample of snow covered roads and surroundings. No wonder I cherish my Rohtang pass tour more than any other I have been to. Snowfall, though still a part of my fantasies, is the bestest (if there exists such a word!!) part of the winters! Well I guess that suggests I must plan for Simla within coming few weeks.. whatsay folks!! he he..!
Very lately when I was in Delhi hanging out with friends, I lived one of the most splendid winter evenings of my life. At the exit gate of the metro station, while on our way to a friend's pg, it occurred to one of us the idea to go for cycling. Thanks to Delhi metros which leave you as refreshing at the destination station as you were at the source, despite the heavy traffic on the city roads. So there we were, all four gals ready to hit the road with our selected cycles. I must appreciate my confidence then as I was going to ride a bicycle after almost 10 years. Whatever! Who cares! We started off and there was no stopping then. Paddling to the full force, honking unnecessarily, outlining all possible geometrical figures with special emphasis on curves, then resting the paddles to let the cycle move on its own, playing with the handle and experiencing the chilling breeze across the face and to add the perfect bollywood touch, singing in chorus "awara bhawre jo haule haule gaaye..". To the people walking in the lanes, two kinds of impressions of ours might have occurred. Either of those too small kids who have recently learned riding a bicycle or of those too big to care for the world around them. We belonged to the second category. Atleast from what we felt at that time. After a long ride, we rested to have momos and were on the way back with the same spirits! If I could describe the experience, the feeling in a single word, I'd say it was heavenly, a blend of perfect timing, perfect climate and the very perfect companions!Cheers gurlz! ;)
At times (may be more than that!), I really enjoy sitting in the balcony late at nights, feeling the cold, listening to the rustling of leaves and tuning to my favorite music. Nothing seems to matter at that time. Life seems to come to a halt at those moments but they are something that are capable enough to move me...

May God bless them..

Hello...
Whats up? Well am good, pretty fine, but I guess something is making me feel uncomfortable. Few moments back, while I was walking through the lane outside, this lil girl caught my attention who was busy fossicking some useful garbage around. Yeah the word is right - useful. She didn't have her feet covered, hair resembling some worn out ropes, wearing a shabby frock, possibly the only piece of cloth she might have to cover herself. She was barely 7-8 years old, least interested to notice whats happening around her, whose passing her or noticing her. All that mattered to her was that garbage bin. This awful scene, as many times before, makes me go wild thinking what made me lucky enough to lead a comfortable life without any worries for survival, to think about my future instead of how am gonna survive for the next dawn of the day.
Poverty has always been bothering me. It always makes me ponder how I would have managed had I been into the same situation. Leading a miserable life, sacrificing at every step, compromising for every need and wish of yours, no freedom of thoughts, living with floods of problems to be faced every now and then, seeing your family in a constant state of dolor, feeling helpless about yourself, dwelling in boondocks, missing fans in summer, fighting with cold winters without proper blankets, lacking those minimum resources required to make a living and so much more! Doesn't that makes you wonder that we never at all had any problem in our lives? The situation gets worst when this poverty continues riding over the shoulders of senescent age. Old age is a stage at which one expects some attention and care which indeed is replaced by one in which they, as always, have to go out and earn whatever little they can, no matter whether their health allows or their feet ache! Its touching to see these people pulling rickshaws, cleaning dishes, carrying loads, serving tea and indulging in other pecuniary activities and yabbering with those trembling words. Amidst all this, its good to see them smiling at times. They surely might have been blessed to be able to manage finding some or the other reasons to smile and stay happy in their course of bridewell life. I sometimes wish if I could help them in some way as nothing seems as satisfying as being one of the reasons for their smile.
As of now, I only want to thank the Almighty for blessing me with a halcyon and mellifluous life where I can plan things other than just sustaining for another day. And WHATEVER, I guess life perhaps is one of the best gifts we have, I wish you a happy one!!
Be good, be fine!
Happy Living!!

CeLeBrATiON!!!

Haelo.. how you doin?? I am as usual breathing healthy and celebrating life!! Celebration... hmm what definition does it actually hold? Well dictionary says it means "activities engaged in celebrating something". Now this is where the distinction comes into play, distinction in the reasons of celebration! I guess the topic transcends into multifarious divisions as we move from one individual to another. Festivals.. ahh the biggest celebration for the masses. With gallons of predefined rituals and tools, festivals carry within themselves their own charm of celebration sandwiched in that numinous spirit that we don't feel in our day-to-day lives! Diwali is one festival that actually is close to my heart. There ain't any specific reason for my liking but I enjoy each and every aspect of it with all my spirits! Be it crackers, the Pooja, the fun with family, the sweets all over, exchange of gifts, the emblazon activities, lights all the way, candles - my love and everything else that remains unmentioned, I love it all! Apart from festivals, there are moments of success which call for a mandatory celebration. Hey I've got a job.. lets dine out!! Or I've got my love.. lets make it a grand!! Celebration marks the importance of the moment right away. It gives you a source to express your happiness and recite your feelings to everyone who matters. And then what more can you ask for when your convivial moments are accompanied by your loved ones.. So just PARTY!!
Following in the line are anniversaries and birthdays! And here comes everyone's favorite i.e. Birthdays! In simple words, a birthday marks an incipient life, a nascent journey. Its special as yours belongs to only you! But for me its special because of the angels and cupids who make it so. Can't explain in just words what it feels! Its so beautiful a feeling that there are people who are only busy in making sure that my day would be the best ever for me. They would make all possible and impossible efforts for the day, would go wild thinking over and over to dig out that most exclusive theme that has never been witnessed, heard or even thought of, ache their empty heads round the clock just to remove the slightest imperfection if there is and chuckling what more spice can be added, would let no compromises enter into the scene and then of course would make it absolutely sure that I don't know anything of it!! ( They think so?? Let them ;) ). Its absolute fun to see those mavericks, who never cared for time being wasted, who only enjoy spending severals of hours doing nothing but lying, getting lethargic and passing on those wafer packets from one to another, scheduling each and every second of my day in the most beautiful way that could be possible. In a nut shell, I feel like the princess of nowhere ;) A sort of elysium. And then WHATEVER.. AM LOVIN IT !!!!!!! Those big and small surprises on a single day from your small world of your people can bless you with some moments whose memories can't be amassed in a day or two! Its vapors remain moist for a long time!! You may come and and go on the day itself buddy.. may be for some limited moments, but just wanna say thats lots more than just enough. By the end of the day, all I know is I have some real special people in my life who are there to take very good care of my joys and me too of course :)
LoVe YoU All !!
But at last, tell me something.. do you really think that one actually needs a reason to celebrate?? Ann ann.. I don't really think so! For me, every moment deserves a celebration. Getting gregarious without any reason is somewhat a different kinda fun. Everyone expects gifts on some occasion but those given without any reason or occasion are more valuable for me perhaps. Nothing out there is a small beer, everything needs to be accoladed. And its facile enough. Celebrate because you're free, you're haling good, coz you don't have anything else to do for now or you wanna shout at the highest pitch of yours, celebrate coz you are in a mood to dance, you wanna enjoy some real wild music, do it coz all you guys are together once again ( doesn't matter if you last met a day before only!!), celebrate coz you got the least marks in your sessionals (it surely is tough!!), celebrate coz you've got your guy or celebrate that your search is still on, celebrate just because you want to, you ought to, you deserve to and above all simply because you don't have a reason NOT to!! Work hard, party harder dude. Seeking reasons is waste of time my friend so what are you waiting for??
ITS THE TIME TO DISCO!!
EnJoY!!!!
Chao

I believe...

Affirmation

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

Dreamz....

Dreams perhaps hold one most prominent place in one's structure of thoughts. Right from the beginning, one starts dreamimg about what he is going to grow up into, thats probably the first dream for anyone. And being a part of the masses, I too dreamt about the same! But fortunately or unfortunately they were never stable!
As I grew up, dreams kept changing or I should say evolving but they never grew up with me or with time. I still live in the same splendid dreamworld of mine which I happenned to create when I was a lil girl, too small to realise the real world. Its a place which has its complete circumference entirely my way. I never pondered to decide its interiors but they kept taking their own shape as I became more and more sure of what I actually aspire for. In a nutshell, it has everything and everyone that I adore, or ever did, in my life. I still enjoy with my lost friends there together with the existing ones and I play with my broken belongings. But the change that time has brought about is that I no more fantasize of turning this amazing imagination of mine into a reality. I no more believe that life is only what you want it to be but rather its never the way you want. One probable reason that I could reasonably figure out is the more you decode and face the truth and reality of the real world, the more you loose faith in your dreamworld . They say its better the sooner you emerge from the imaginations of yours, so, I have!
But that, ofcourse, doesn't means that one should stop dreaming. WHATEVER...one should always dream as it makes you more precise in articulation and gives you the freedom of enjoying your life in a way that you always wanted to without any ifs and buts. And then who knows, one of them might even come true! God afterall is one power I completely have faith in. So pals, dream like you have never dreamt before. Let your dreams breathe in the air irrespective of their being too much or too less possible. Sky is the limit having a wide horizon saying "Dreams Unlimited"!! Live life kingsize....

Music..Ahhh the flavour of life!

Music..the very word is refreshing in its own. Music has always been a can't-live-without passion. It doesn't matter at times whether or not I am listening to it, but its presence is indispensable for me. Though its never certain as of what I want to listen all the time or may be most of the times, I never had a particular choice about it. I prefer listening fast beats as it keeps me enthusiastic. Unknowingly it gives me an unknown reason to enjoy myself, to enjoy whatever situation I am in and I really feel like "I don't give a damn!" kinda feeling when I am completely into it. It somehow makes me realize I am extremely important to someone and thats no one else but me!!
All moods realized into a 4-6 minutes piece of sound!! It feels amazing to know that even a majority of other people too think the way you do! And then for that matter it could be anything... feeling happy, feeling sad, feeling rediculous about something, getting depressed over something, getting nostalgic, confused between right and wrong or perhaps the most beautiful feeling.. feeling of love!! It tunes out all your feelings in the most splendid and expressive way possible. I reckon that music is the best way to express one's feeling as you can't be that clear and expressive yourself at times! WHATEVER.... may be its a mere source of entertainment for someone, a tool for partying for someone else but it means a lot more than all these things to me.. what exactly, can't really say!!

LIFE.. What is it?

Life!!!! Everybody has his own way to visualize! It can be as beautiful and serene as this flower or for someone it might appear dull and colorless as this flower again!! Its all about YOUR way of putting up the things!
Life is going good, as in I have no complaints with it but still i feel there is something I am not satiated with! There is something I am alawys craving for and what it is, I just don't know! But then I think its with everybody, if one is satisfied with everything in life, life has no meaning left!
One thing I love about life is that its always changing. We never encounter the same things time and again, and that leads you to know what actually the so called "diversity" is! Thats admitted that even joys are also not permanent but at tough times, the very thought gives me immense satisfaction that even sorrows too are momentary. I like taking life the way it comes, I like to face and tackle the ups and downs but when they appear at the cost of my relations, thats where I am weak and get hurt!
Since the child hood to the date today, it has always been a tremendous learning experience. At every stage I think thats all that life had to teach me and every next stage I find myself wrong! It still has so much in store and unfortunately it makes me more apprehensive but then WHATEVER... I still believe in life, every aspect of it, it has given me a wonderful family to take care and some friends who are all enough for me to combat with every situation!! Hope I could someday frame it completely my way.........