Life back to Life..

Long time no see applies to me when it comes to Whatever these days. Life never got busy to an extent where I couldn't take out some time now and then to write my heart out. It was rather my own decision which kept retaining my resistance to interact someway or rather anyway with this post editor. Unlike the usual, it was a time when I didn't want anyone to know how and what I was feeling. When life changes, everything else has to wait for its settlement. Now, I guess settlement has started taking place in my piece of life. And by the grace of God and my loving family, like the usual, I again want to share my unbound thoughts and feelings with my world.
My legacy of contemplating life still continues the way it has always been my favorite topic. All this time, life had been a ride with perhaps its lowest of the lows and the highest of the highs. 
Today, as I prepare myself to step ahead in an all new phase of life, I lay still, completely undisturbed and think of all the things I have got from life and of those which life might have in store for me. I know I had been bit stubborn and demanding from life lately, but then I also believe that it was going to be a now-or-never decision. Millions of things are running through my mind and I am unable to settle them inside all by myself. I look back to those days of childhood times when going to school seemed a big project and scoring 10 out of 10 was the only goal of life. When getting candies from Mom was the only delight in life and fighting with Bro was the only problem I would have. Then I recollect growing up to those days of adolescence when I assumed myself the queen of the world. It was a time when Mom's candies had turned into personal vehicle and fights extended their domain to friends as well. Gradually while stepping out of that growing-up adolescent age, there came a grown up stage where responsibility takes over most of the immaturity in you and life suddenly becomes an object of endless contemplation. Its the time when you start setting your priorities and you also start driving according to them. From that point onwards, I only see myself transitioning slowly and slowly into a new someone everyday.
Now, when I dig deeper into this transition of mine, I realize there had been people who had stuck with me every moment despite the changes in me being good or bad, I realize that knowingly or unknowingly I have earned some gems which were the sole reason of all  the happiness in my account, I realize that my family is my constant source of existence and that its my first and last destination, I realize that my friends are my ultimate companions in this ride and they are the reason for my first and last celebration.
With all these amazing realizations, I do feel sad leaving behind a part of me where I have lived my first half of life, but I also feel enormously confident to step forward and enter a new world with new people and new responsibilities. I just hope life and God keep blessing me with these amazing people together with the new ones as I transform my Love into this beautiful relationship called Marriage...

Life - A kaleidoscope!

Life couldn't be more unstable and uncertain. But still, no matter what, there is a ray of hope.. and thats what is all that am living with!

Pune..

Here I am, sitting in my cubicle all alone, waiting to leave it forever. Today is supposedly my last day in Infosys Pune, well, Pune. May be its natural, but the complete one year that I spent here is flashing right in front of my eyes, so clear, so loud. Thousands of feelings and thoughts are popping up, don’t know how and where to settle them. I remember the first day I stepped in here and I was amazed with the beauty of the Infy campus and excited with the very idea of inhabiting a new city. Living in pune was a beautiful and memorable experience. With all the goods and bads, I would rate it 8 on 10 though around 5 of these 8 points go to one soul reason. Anyways..! As I write this post, I realize how badly am gonna miss this place! I’ll miss its weather. For sure am gonna miss the awesome weather where you can expect a heavy down pour anytime any day while drizzling is almost permanent here, where you always prefer bathing with hot water round the year, where you prefer fan speed to be as low as possible (atleast I prefer that!), where sky is always cloudy and makes you fall in love with the city all the way more. Am gonna miss the hang outs, the CCDs, the restaurants, the places that I had been to, many of them hold warm memories for me, and I will always look back to them whenever I’ll think of my good times. Am gonna miss Infosys Pune DC, for its beauty, for its elegance, for its location which is surrounded by hills on all sides, for its FC1, FC2 and iBPO, will miss the times of ECC, SDB 9, SDB 7, SDB 8 (I guess only an Infoscion can understand these jargons!), for giving me my first project, my first team, my first technology, my first of everything in a corporate beginning, I’ll miss this DC a LOT! Am gonna miss H101, my flat, my first flat, first independent life, gawd I’ll miss it badly. It wasn’t really a flat, it was more like a home, thanks to three amazing partners of mine with whom life was all the way more beautiful. I learnt cooking, I learnt responsibility, I learnt what it takes to manage a home, both financially and emotionally, I learnt how to set the rules, I learnt how to define yourself, I loved my flat! Yes, am gonna miss the amazing people with whom I met and lived in pune and without whom all the above things wouldn’t have made any difference to me, I am gonna miss pune for numerous reasons but I’ll miss it most for the friends it gave me, every other reason is somewhere because of them only. Be it a colleague, a team member, a friend or a special friend, I lived every relation with its complete charm and no matter how things had been, I’ll remember each one of them, I’ll cherish each one of them. And when it comes to cherishing people attached to pune, I wanna say THANKS to the four closest friends of mine who were there with me in all the thick and thins, will miss you guys, will miss every second of our time spent together, whether on the roads of pune in FC, MG, KP, or in Infy, or in our very own flat, will miss you all, will miss the 5 of us together!

I wish something happens and I don’t have to leave today, but miracles don’t really exist, not atleast when you expect them so terribly. Well, here people say, life moves on, as of now, I see mine as still! All I can say in the end is.. Farewells are BAD! :(

Turning Pages...

Alright!! Seems I've finally completed my training!! The feeling,I thought, would be overloaded with excitement and joy but it ain’t anything like that. Its a happy feeling but kinda empty! If you ask me the reason.. I myself don’t know!

Woah!! It has been 4 months I've been away from my whatever’s post editor... and to summarize these 4 months in a single post ain’t an easy thing to do! Life seems to have taken a sharp turn.. a turn which has given a new direction to my life! Though at times , the very idea of this new change pesters me in the context whether its exactly what i wanted or not!! I often wonder whether my life is leading in the direction I wanted it to or not but almost every time, I do not happen to land on a definite answer!

As of now, the cons that lay attached to this new life are good in their number! I have become responsible.. WOW! Now with responsible, I don’t mean to say I was a born junk of trash or immensely irresponsible but its just that i never had a task or job waiting for my action. There was nothing that I was in complete charge of and now , there is a lot of it including my life!

Gone are the days when doing nothing was all that kept me busy round the clock.. when planning parties and get-togethers was done every now and then.. when there was nothing that was left undone as I was never short of time.. when watching movies and Friends constituted a major part of my daily routine.. when music was with me the way I am with myself.. when that hostel room and my best friends was my favorite hangout.. when my room at home was my favorite resting place.. when I daily used to see and talk to people I adore.. and like this.. when there was so much of it...is all gone!! But then I knew it would happen and luckily, life is fair enough to me that my past doesn’t overpowers my present! Life still remains my favorite game, interesting and adventurous as ever! Getting out of myself more than I thought I could deliver is a good feeling. Now there's a lot to do in a day but then I like to keep doing something or the other, there are lesser parties but taking out time for even one after a long gap is a different kinda fun, things need to be postponed at times but then I am happy that still, there is nothing that's left undone be it sooner or later, movies are fewer but that's okay and as of Friends, its still on.. can't afford to miss on it!! Miss the intensity of my music but again, haven't compromised much with it. Hostel can never come back, nor those friends so I've learnt missing them. As there ain't much time to rest, there ain't any time to miss my room as well. As of my world of people, have nothing more to say other then "Miss You Guys!!!".

But as always, I continue loving my life as before and am lovin this new phase with all it is offering me. Though, I hope someday, I'll be able to understand the goal that lies in these fast turning pages of my life more clearly...!!

P.S.: At the end of every post I write on Whatever, I can't resist feeling "Why the hell am I so abstract!!!". And once again I am feeling the same as I read my post before publishing.. but can't really change it.. it's just what I feel!! So kindly adjust ;)

And with that.. Goodnite...!!

Hale Good!!

Its time for a change...

Alright, finally the time has arrived for which I had been waiting for a long time! Its the beginning of a new life, a new world to me. This new everything expects or rather requires me to be a new entire being too. Don't really know if I am anyways capable of doing any of that but I know one thing that I am willing to tackle things that lay piled up for me in the near future. As for the war of feelings and emotions going on inside me, there's a part which makes me ponder over that unfortunate moment when I readily uploaded this huge decision in my horoscope. Something that wouldn't allow my family and my people to be an active part of my life for a good period of time but that occurs for just a matter of instance. Optimism and high zeal still rest as the overpowering part of the war. Will miss some amazing people that I know and will miss some beautiful times I spent being with them but I guess that is the real essence of the turn of the events taking place in my life.
I hope living thousands of miles away from my home and entering into the corporate world proves to be a major milestone for me and leads me to the place I have always wanted to be!!
Fingers X :)

In the walk of life..

Haelo, am here again!! Life, thankfully and as always, is breathing healthily. I guess its always good to be happy no matter whats going on in the real time ambience of life, it helps - trust me. Its all just your perception.
Well it was only a few moments back when something made me remember a face I had met long time back and with whom I have no contact presently. That took me to a sprint a little back in time and I realised there were so many other such faces which happened to make a difference in my life at a point of time but are nowhere a part of my today, perhaps not even in my memories. I remember a girl living in the adjacent house of mine and we used to have great fun together. Then there was this cherubic boy who used to be the last one in the queue of the school bus stop and happened to be my friend and so many more. Along with these newbie-to-life time faces, there are a few too recent to be forgotten. Each time you tell yourself, we'll maintain a good contact and would continue for a long time but its not consternating that you only remember the incident for a few days and with time, just like any other badinage, it starts attenuating save a few related faces (that too perhaps!) and it all ends up residing, for the rest of the time, in a corner of your memories where you hardly peep, eh? I don't really know what significance lies behind these gossamer-like acquaintances, but I know that they ain't malicious and they give you a sense of temporary happiness. And in todays' world, if you can accustom to even a bit of happiness, something that everyone hesitates to confess they have, its really not a bad deal, its complacent.
Time moves on and on (I wish if I could have a hold over it!!). We always wish we could turn back, to get back to those again, to enjoy those laughters again, to greet those people again and... to listen those words again. Yeah, there are some words, may be said very casually or may be thoughtfully too, which leave an everlasting impression on you! If looking at the future that tells me that I might not have a friend I adore today, makes me upset, at the same time I feel at cloud nine when I hear that friend saying "Kabhi alvida na kahna!". Just imagine you think you are wasting someone's time with your crap conversation, but then you get a scoop "time spent with you is never a wastage but always a memory!". They mean it or not.. does it really matter?? For me, it doesn't matter at all! All that matters is the message encapsulated and the feelings that lay hidden inside. They say "you bring out the best in me!" and that makes me feel diffident. Again, WHATEVER, words do matter, they can heal anything even before the most effective medicine - time. And then here on this memoir too, i'd like to add up
" Its only words and words are all I have to take your heart away!"

In the walk of life, you come across millions of faces daily and there is no one to tell you who among them can be a congenial part of your life, one who will strive to foster you and your life. Out of adoloscence you tend to believe in everyone and be friends to all of them but with time, you end up retaining with only a handful of them! Sounds chagrin? But here I'd rather say that if you really still have those handful ones on your couch, whats only missing is a mug of coffee.. well its time to party my dear!
So EnJoY!!!
Adieu

EnJoY!!

Try abstainig your emotions going wasted on anybody or everybody for that matter, just take light and live every nano-second as a top class zealot! Fall into the abyss of life and amass as much of fun as you can!! Live life as if there won't be any tomorrow following the dusk of today!!!
Keep it cool !!!

Life's speedometer..

Okay, once again I am back to the analysis of life! Guess I am throwing myself too much into the speculations but thats only something all over my mind for a considerable period of time now. Couldn't really resist to jot down.
It was only another normal day which, oddly enough, changed the direction of everything related to my life. Man!! I got a placement! The feeling was too overwhelming in itself that it was almost difficult to digest it. In a matter of few miutes, I felt on cloud nine and thought myself capable of doing something I had always longed to - change the world! Everyone seemed to be happy with my piece of success. Though the opportunity had come unexpected, I was somewhere getting apprehensive contemplating the very obvious thought - "Is it that I am gonna do it?". I had everyone around me, ensuring me of my unknown-to-me impeccable qualities ( because I hardly think I own any!). The feeling could be of disappointment, not of myself, but of all those who have been investing their faith in me. The very phrase "Don't worry yaar, I'm sure you'll crack it!" always gets high on my nerves. And there I was saying to myself "How could you be so sure when I am just not!". But thats the way things go, so does the life perhaps. And when finally I encountered the good news, the only thing I was inerested in, apart from my happiness, was to know their reactions. It sometimes, rather most of the times, becomes hard to live up to the expectations but as a matter of experience I can say, being in your senses, being completely yourself and having a bit of faith is all you need to get through! Success surely accelerates the pace of life with intense entuhsiasm and profoundness but when life knows how to bolster you, it very well knows how to get you back at ease as well. So beware!

Relations play a very vital role in one's life. If you own some, on whom you think you can count with your eyes shut, I guess there is nothing much left to ask God for. And they are the one's who are the prime reason of accelerating the pace of your life in your good time or may be bad for that matter. It feels great to know that someone is happy, perhaps more than you, on your big day. Not only this, they make you feel at ease when you are actually not. And for this, it could be anyone, may be your parents, your siblings or may be friends. And its then when one of them betrays unexpectedly, life seems to come to an abrupt halt. The speedometer seems to read an absolute zero. But when you encounter few of such similar times, it only takes a few days' time to believe that thats what life is all about! Nonetheless, I still have, not few but many such people who can hasten up my speed anytime. So believe in life be it good or bad.. WHATEVER.. but the show must go on! I am not really sure what crap I wrote above, but I couldn't really elaborate myself more!! EnJoY!!